11/15/2018

Date: 11/15/2018

Current lesson:  Threshold 5

Salutation: adoration
....morning: 06:45
....afternoon: 12:00
....evening: 16:58

Meditation: mindfulness
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Meditation: Cross of Light/ rhythmic breathing
....time: 21:52
....duration: 15 minutes
....results: difficult settling down. I often forget myself and lose the rhythmic breathing. I obviously need more practice.

I thought of the third element in the Pattern on the Trestleboard: "Through me it's unfailing Wisdom takes form in thought and work". Is this an aspiration for me desiring to become wise. Or is this a statement that no matter how wretched or misguided I might be, what I express is It's hidden wisdom in spite of myself. This would imply that even pain and suffering is part of It's wisdom. HHhhhmmm.

Daily-life:
Books-being-read: "Mystical Qabalah" by Dion Fortune.
Other:
21:26 20 minutes on Threshold lesson 4 goal.

I'm noticing that I'm dragging my feet regarding starting Lesson 6 where I meditate on specific concepts. I wonder why.